Your ideas do no matter.
Everyone has ideas and desires. Fixating on being an idea person or a unique thinker is a zero sum game.
I know from personal experience how easy it is to lie to yourself. If you never take any action on your ideas you might start to fall in love with the fantasy of who you could be.
If only you just tried.
I get it. The fear of failing is a legitimate fear. It is a reasonable fear.
It is also inevitably going to happen if you try to make your ideas come to life. You will fail. You’ll fail wonderfully so many times, but that is how success happens. That is how you changed your life.
You have to fail implementing your own ideas, or you may spend your life waiting for someone else’s to fail.